I've gotten to the point where I can't take my frustrations out physically, such as punching/kicking something anymore. Writing used to work and talking too. Now, whenever I need to release my pent up anger/frustrations, I yell. It causes blood to rush to my head, causing a type of high that lasts just long enough for me to calm down. I know it's not healthy, I mean my throat hurts just typing this. I'm lost, lonely and out of options. I can honestly say, now, I'm in desperate need of an intimate relationship.